Blog Post #20

A) How do I feel about this course as a learning experience?

I'm going to answer that in paragraph form. I'm not sure my writing has changed all that much in the last few years of my life. In fact I just found a paper I wrote about the existence of God, and how it a higher power must exist necessarily if anything exists. It was a two pager skimming my beliefs that if anything exists everything must exist. It didn't cite anyone, or refer to anyone, or use too many four syllable words. But on the whole I wouldn't have changed much.

I wrote this paper in seventh grade.

Before you ask, it was in a philosophy class, and I went to Montessori school. It was probably the best class I've ever taken. Though, in retrospect teaching a thirteen year old kid about Nietzsche was probably not the single best thing you can do if you want them to grow up loving and happy. But I digress.

The point is, I wrote pretty well, I'd like to think in seventh grade. I didn't really have too much need to improve throughout high school, and even in college I'd say that I wrote "a better paper" than some of the people in my classes (not all, and it's not like they weren't intelligent, but probably not as artful of wordsmiths). This class did make me take a look at myself and realize how much I've settled for what I am.

There are far more specific forms of writing than I had thought. Basically, I judged writing as overall form, and then by intent. Novel-romance, poem-concrete, article-science journal etc, etc. Added to that I’ve always more or less wrote how I talked, even so far as creating specific spellings for slang terms I'd use (such as "aight" or "whatch'yupta") In fact, except on very few chosen occasions, I use correct grammar, that is to say spelling, phrasing, and punctuation, (or at least intentionally and methodically incorrect grammar) in something as minute and inconsequentional as a text message.

Needing to describe something physically, with context but without reflection or narrative isn't easy for me, because when someone (I) speaks they speak from a first person perspective always. Their words almost always cannot be separated from the bodies saying (both physically and metaphorically). And saying something that's actively without author is hard. So too with writing a descriptive blog post.

I'm not sure if it's the last throws of a head cold or my mental state right now, but Thom Yorke's voice is shredding the innards of my head write now.

I think I've improved as a writer in that Joshua Ware has been by spirit guide (roll with me, it's a metaphor) and, in the wilderness of my literarily productive mind, led me to the top of a mountain. From the top of this mountain I now see all the places I haven't yet been.